For those of you who have struggled with your weight like I have all these years, I had to get a few things out in the open.
- I have never ever in my entire life craved carrot sticks.* I have been reading this book called Made to crave by Lysa TerKeurest and it is so damn enlightening I had to write a few things down to share with you.
- My weakness is Peanut M&M (yep this is the party size, thanks for noticing).
- I don’t understand why they can’t be healthy. Chocolate is a plant from cocoa correct, plus the fact that there is PEANUTS in it. A nut, good fat right (is there really such a thing, because if there is I’d be considered AMAZING!) SO why can’t carrots or celery or yellow squash taste the same as the Peanut M&M? They are the same color, and consistency (both hard, yellow squash, green celery and orange carrots which are a majority of the colors in said M&M package.)
- Why is it when I look in the mirror I think “Damn I look good” then someone takes a picture and I’m all like “WHAT THE..who is that?”
I know there are certain things I know about myself. I know I need to change several things as I begin the downward slope of the late 40s. If anyone gets a medal for trying, I’d have 3,456,734,983. Yep…that many. Thing is..I won’t stop trying. The moment I give up is the day I die.
What I have learned is it is so much easier to make excuses than make changes.
Let me write that again…It is so much easier to make EXCUSES than to make CHANGES.
Remember the garden of Eden…I mean what did that snake temp Eve with…FOOD! We were doomed from the beginning. BUT…I AM NOT THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE.
I have to say that several times and not worry about that stupid box in my bathroom. No matter how many pieces of clothing I take off, how many times I pee before hand (not to mention the other number we never talk about hoping I do THAT before I get on said box,)…no matter how I stand, tippy toes, on heals, only 1 foot at a time…it doesn’t really matter, it isn’t WHO I am .
AND it isn’t who YOU are either. I watched The Office episode the other day where they were trying to win a contest about how much the entire office could lose (incentive, they get days off work). Dwight took all of the unhealthy snacks out of the vending machines and put fresh fruits and veggies in it (1st like that will ever happen, where is the package of peanut M&M’s Dwight?) AND after a few days, there were gnats and flies in there. SEE, fresh veggies and fruits are unhealthy. (Seriously, it did make me laugh.)
Eating healthy can be expensive…it can also be cost saving when you ARE healthy you don’t get diseases, and bad knees from caring extra weight around, heart problems, diabetes…etc, etc, etc. So I did it…I began my journey yet again BUT this time I incorporated something different. I took out the word DIET and replaced it with Healthy. AND I added a much important word/person in this journey…GOD.
I know I am made to crave…I am made to long for things, want for things, desire things, sometimes BEG for things when our sugar meter is begging us to fill it…but I am replacing GOD with that. 1st John 2:15 says Don’t love the world or anything in it. If you do, the love of your father is not in Him. Cravings of sinful man, lust and boasting for what he has or does, or has not, comes NOT from the Lord but from the world.
That scripture HIT HOME! Satan will put feelings and thoughts in our heads “You can’t do it, just give in.” “It’s only ONE bite, you deserve it” “Just give up, you won’t make progress, you never have, you will just gain it all back again like before”. We are consumed by these thoughts in our heads…We see foods that aren’t great for us as pleasing to the eye, wow that will taste so good, so desirable right? So I am going to switch my desires…I desire to be more with the Father as he strengthens my cravings. I desire to be an example of breaking the cycle, to show my kids what healthy is. The more saturated with HIM I become, the less Satan can entice.
I will leave you with one of the most beneficial scriptures I have read (1st Corinthians 10:23), Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial. Keep that in your mind this week as you embrace what God has to offer to you.
And if you struggle like I do…just keep swimming, it’s good exercise anyway.
Be a good example…because Parenting can be Meshy.